A Moment of Honesty
I need to have a little moment of honesty here…
It’s easy to be upbeat on the internet. Or I should say to appear upbeat. All you have to do is add exclamation points!!! Yay!!!!! Do you think I’m upbeat? Did I convince you with that? 🙂 <– {{ADD SMILEY FACE FOR GOOD MEASURE}}
Well, I’m not what I would call “upbeat” right now.
I am getting it, a bad case of blog burnout. I’m just so tired all the time and sometimes the last thing I want to do is rack my brain for new and super original craft ideas. (I think I’m trying too hard.) It’s hard, the pressure you tend to put on yourself to progress. Really, in any part of our lives: work, home, even play. And I’m tired of little to no results! (Maybe this is actually about my frustration with losing baby weight…)
It’s hard for me to say these things because blogging is the one place where I can show people how I really feel about things since I rarely outwardly show these type of feelings. I’m not a squealing ‘woo’ girl. I don’t have a naturally sunny disposition. People have VERY frequently labeled me as snobby, bratty, intimidating, and stuck-up because of my normal ‘blah’ face. You know what I’m talking about? I guess the smile lines on my face turn down or something, because almost every boss I’ve ever had was CONVINCED I was completely unhappy working for them.
**There is seriously nothing more annoying than people telling you to smile more.**
I don’t need to prove anything to anyone by smiling all the time. I smile when I want to, when I feel happy and upbeat. But is anyone really like that ALL the time? Even Giselle (“Enchanted”, come on people!) didn’t smile ALL. THE. TIME. Maybe I just need to make up cheery little tunes as I do life’s mundane tasks.
“Vacuuming my house is so fun, even tho’ I do it a ton!”
“Cooking dinner for the zillionth time, would take-out really be such a crime?”
“Poop on your bum, poop on your bum” ( <–that’s a real song I actually do sing.)
I just thought I would help you understand me a little more. I really am fine, just a little tired tonight and needed an outlet. I love crafting, I love sewing, and I really do love you guys. And just go on thinking that every exclamation point I use is just as happy as I’d like you to believe. 🙂
yes I too have been told to smile more… or better yet… I thought you were a total B* until I really got to know you… SUPER! I hate that, I just don't walk around all day smiling… I am happy! I hope it helps to know other bloggers feel the same way! Have a great day! 😉
we all have our ups and downs and it does help to share. sounds to me as if you could do with a little (bloggo-) holiday and recharge your batteries. You made me think though, I use an awful lot of !!!… mmm….. 🙂 hang on in there, it'll get better soon and there is no shame in being down. It happens to everyone.
Thank you for your honesty post, and I can also relate to your smile thing. One summer I was told, "the world is so much better when you smile" so many times that I wrote my Rodeo Queen speech about it! (Which worked out pretty well) Apparently there are those of us with faces that must just look miserable unless we're smiling brightly! 😉 But seriously WHO smiles ALL the time?
hang in there..you are a MOM!!! Above all else and moms do A LOT and are always tired it seems…give yourself a break and take just 10 min a day for yourself…a quick nap, book, magazine, sit quietly (I know what a thought!?!?) coffee, cookie..whatever! just 10 minutes to rejuvenate! And I say all this with EXTRA !!!!! 🙂
I get the same comments about not smiling and pepole thinking I'm snobby. Ugh Sorry I just don't have a perma grin on my face. Even when I feel like I'm smiling pepole still say you need to smile! Really? Do I look that depressed? I sure don't feel that way. Any how just thought I'd share with you your not the only one who gets those same comments. Hope it helped a bit. LOVE your quilts! Wish I could afford one as I have a baby comming! You truly are talented!
Keep your head up, pretty lady! Really, people need to try and look beyond the "non-smile." Trust me, I don't think you're a snob. I can only imagine how you might be feeling and I would be pretty darn burned out too. You do a lot and it takes it's toll. Give yourself a little credit and remember to just breath. 🙂 Can I do anything for you? My little guy is starting to feel better so maybe we'll get to come to playdate Wednesday. Would that be ok? Seriously, you're great! Keep up the good work and fight the good fight.
I live with a man who seldom smiles, so I know you can be happy and polite even if you aren't grinning like a jack-o-lantern. Keep your head up, and try not to fret too much over the blog. We'll all be here when you post, and we will wait patiently if you don't. You do have a life away from the computer, after all!
Glad to hear you have the same kind of days I do! Sometimes I wonder how these amazing 'blog' women are so perfectly happy? Don't worry though… I still think you are amazing 😉
I have a 'cranky' face too 🙂 I like it. It keeps away people I don't want to deal with 🙂
I'M WITH YOU, GIRLFRIEND! (Ok, I think that's the first time I've used the expression girlfriend. A little inappropriate, perhaps? Oh well, I'm committed now.)
My "Neutral" face is a bit grumpy or angry or something. The amount of times people have passed me while driving and then said, "Wow, you looked really upset/angry when I passed you." I guess I try and smile as much as possible in person so they're not used to it. Of course, my smile lines show it, so maybe I need to stop that. What's the point of being cheery if your face looks like a road map??
Hm, I need to meditate on this for some time.
P.S. My word verification below is "enizzle" which just makes me want to say, "enizzle my schnizzle" Oh yeah. I'm so street.
I'd say a large glass of wine and extra bubbly bath should be in your future STAT! I know you're not smiling, but I literally laughed out loud at your "Poop on your bum" song. That's destined to be a classic. Hope tomorrow brings better things.
First off, I'm new to your blog and I am not only impressed by your creativity and talent, but also with the fact that you manage to do all that you do with little kids under foot! I have one kid (18 months) and I can barely do the laundry on a regular basis! As for the new creative ideas you have to come up with all the time: there are no new creative ideas. If someone has thought it, I guarantee someone else has too– I know you mentioned that before. BUT maybe someone hasn't put such a pretty or different spin on the idea…that's where you come in. Anyway, don't stress. You do beautiful work, and you are being hard on yourself. It's hard enough to just be a mom/ wife–You're doing great! And that exclamation point is 100% sincere:)
A blog is such a front, because really, I'm not going to go on in a post that I hate how much my husband spends on the computer looking at his fantasy football stats, no one wants to read about that, so everyone who blogs comes off as perfect and happy. But seriously, my husband needs to spend less time on fantasty football.
I agree with the wine and the bubble bath bit, that sounds lovely. We are doing a bathroom remodel right now, so no bubblies until I get that stupid tiling done, but I've been sick so I can't do the stupid tiling. It's such a catch 22 – sick, so no tiling, so no bathtub, but no bathtub, so still sick.
I've had the same problem with past employers too!! Multiple times they have said they don't think I'm happy there. lol I'm glad I'm not the only one! Thats why I love being a SAHM because I don't have to deal with judgmental bosses! 🙂
Thanks for sharing…you are not alone, I can relate to A LOT of what you wrote, pretty much all of it.
Hope it helps to know I'm sending you a gramma hug.
I can't wait to hear you sing the vacuuming song the next time you guys come visit. That line was classic.
Please. I'll take Will and Luke for a walk. Treat yourself to a bubble bath.